Is there anything more exciting for authors than a new book release!
Hello friends! I’m very excited to announce that my book, Confessions of a Timid Rider, will be released this year! I’m working diligently on edits and it will soon be ready for beta readers.
For those of you who may not be aware, I struggle with confidence as an equestrian. Confessions of a Timid Rider began as a blog series on Bridle & Bone. My passion is horses and as a result I am extremely hard on myself to become better and push myself forward. It was difficult for me to share my story but the responses have been mind blowing. There are so many of us, equestrians, women, entrepreneurs, that struggle with confidence.
If you are passionate about something, truly passionate, it gives you a sense of pride when you do it well. But it can also be a source of fear. Fear of failure or not living up the expectations of others or yourself.
Stay tuned because you won’t want to miss this book release.
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**Excerpt from Confessions of a Timid Rider**
“As I plunge toward the ground, I see the face of my horse above me blocking the sun. For that split second before I hit the rain-packed ground I close my eyes I think to myself, “Avoid the hooves”.
This moment was one I dreaded since I became a mother. The thought of falling off and hurting myself in front of my children was something that plagued my nightmares and caused anxiety.
A few months ago, I had a near miss. Delight and I were in our weekly lesson at the barn. We came in a little too slow to the cross rail. Delight lost his balance, tripping over the rail, and we both started to fall.
In slow motion, I can still see Delight’s nose touch the ground. I slipped slowly down his neck, clinging for dear life. All I thought in that moment was if I topple over his head, he might become more unbalanced and land on me. So I slowly picked myself up and scooted back, lifting Delight’s large thoroughbred head up to help him regain his balance.
We were okay. That time. But I was shaken. I did not fall. Delight did not fall. We regained our balance, no one was hurt, and nothing bad happened. But I kept replaying the scene in my mind. The WHAT IF factor. The image became stuck in my head for the rest of our lesson and I could not let it go.
“GET OVER IT”.
I hear it frequently during lessons. My trainer sees that I am no longer connected to my horse. I am absent. Now too much in my own head.
It’s a chronic problem. My entire life I have been very cerebral, balancing ideas and considering outcomes. Horse riding has been a way for me to escape my own brain, or try to at least. Warring between self-doubt and my passion for horses.
I’ve been called many things, but “timid” never in my memory. Perhaps in a way this will show you just how important horses are to me in my life. Because this matters. Horses matter. And as a result, I want to be the best I can be. Sadly, this results in self doubt and delayed progress. I am my own worst enemy.
These are the confessions of a timid rider.”